Just Like a Paperback Novel
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You think I don’t know you and all
your thoughts that don’t include me.
I must look a fool to you thinking
all your feelings that I cannot see.
I know you like a book I have read
so many times; I know every line.
Blocking from my heart miseries;
savoring pages when you were mine.
So many short stories in my heart
with hopes of a good ending at last.
I would never skip a page; not one
nor would I ever read too very fast.
I linger over all the good parts as they
were; like a child with a sweet candy cane.
Trying only for the joy I could find
and ignoring what I could of the pain.
Who can say where it went wrong but
I know it wasn’t a tale I ever wanted.
I kept trying to change the ending for so
very long; while others kept you haunted.
You determined long ago to be the star and
only you mattered in this; our book.
Where fantasies were only for you; and I would
be slammed shut; and utterly shook.
If I could have added all the pictures I had
maybe you could have seen the very same as me.
But your imagination did not include this one;
not in one paragraph or chapter could I see.
The book we know was all about you and the
ending finally would leave me so all alone.
With not even memories of times that should
have been special and now are simply gone.
You think I don’t know it has been over and
your wandering mind still holds another there.
When the only one who should be all you wanted
is continually over looked without even one care.
I have read you many times; studied you well;
I truly know there can be no happy ending.
You prefer a ghost of someone you think you
wanted; with your wishes always pending.
I should not let the ending destroy my own wishes
and dreams of what might have been.
It is all I have had while loving you and reading
you have a love you’ve never seen.
Now we near the end of our story; where happily
ever after should have been written.
All your memories are of someone you never knew;
a sad fairy tale of someone once smitten.
It isn’t even tragic enough to be Romeo and Juliet
for that would have taken feelings you so lack.
That story for you and me might have been true
but surely only with that dagger in my back.
My one regret with all the times I read this book
to never have had a corner dogear bend.
All I have now is a sorrow that I did not rip out
all the pages; to write my very own before the end
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Hubpages published 1/13/12
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Hi Jackie, just a thought. Are you 'following' poetry? If you are your poem should show up in the poetry feed.
Thank you snakelane and yes I am, that is why I wonder why it was stuck here, makes no sense. I put it in the poetry group and I wonder sometimes if that is why some of my hubs are not found. It is in poetry group, absolutely. Thanks for caring anyway, lol.
It is showing up on my 'poetry' feed. When you go to the poetry 'topics' page there is a green arrow on the right hand side that you click to become a follower. Have you done that Jackie?
What a beautifully written poem with perfect stanzas and perfect rhyme. I like the way the story unfolds and feel deeply what you are saying. Thank You. Voted way up! Jamie
Thanks so much jhamann, great to have a new fan.
I checked to see if I was following poetry for sure and I am but I will look for a green arrow, thanks snakeslane. Ohh to that name, lol.
Very Very Lovely Jackie
Keep up the good work and i am still waiting for the follow from Jackie :) LOL
I know, ouch!
Thanks Lady, I have been waiting on yours, but maybe it is there now.
No, nothing from you dear!
This is indeed a beautiful poem. Loved every verse.
Voting up and away
Double checked snakeslane, in fact I unfollowed and followed again....who knows. Thanks for trying to help though.
This is an awesome and beautiful poem...and sad...you write beautiful...I voted way up...debbie
Rosemay, thank you so much. Had help picking which one to put next and someone thought of this song, so I went with this poem. Can use the votes!
Deborah, good to see you and thank you!
Jacky, From my heart for sure.I know every word in your beautiful poem. Yes it's to bad for us,! And for them as well that the pages weren't different. Their Power-Over is so great with their sociopathic traits that they are unable to visualize that happy ending for anyone but themselves
You do indeed, girl read him like a book. Good job. Vote up + KDee (Kay)
I think most of us would go for that happy ending and I am supposing many of us have the recipe for how that is to happen, but life is what it is once the end of the book comes. Thank you so much KDee.
Beautiful poem, well written as always.
Blessings
I like the way the whole poem is a metaphor of a relationship and reading a book. Nicely done!
This is amazing. It feels real, like it's something you have or are experiencing, maybe because I know the emotions you speak of so well. Every word, every line spoke a story. I really hope it's just a poem because it if's not, then it must be painful to tell.
Thank you so much Rolly, always appreciate your visit and comments.
Thank you rebeccamealey, that is what I hoped to accomplish so I am really glad you saw it that way.
Cardisa, lol, if all I wrote was true I would be one warped person unable to write I think, but so many do believe all my poems are about me and that is really a compliment and to some extent I suppose we all have to pull from some personal feelings to make it heart felt, don't we? I am so so pleased you like it. Praise from followers is my only reward! As you can see....
I always love your poems. This is really believable!
Thank you Cardisa and I do have many more lol. If I could it is all I would do. I been promising another Jackie as a child story though so I have to dig one of those out soon. I am coming right over to visit you. Been meaning to all day. Did you see LadyFiddler's hub to me? That girl is so sweet...
A lovely poem Jackie, full of emotion, voted up/beautiful
Thank you so much for reading and you are always one of the ones whose opinion means much to me!
Jackie this was a really good poem on deep love not returned. The ending was killer the way you wrote it. Theres one thing I'm curious about though: how could a fine lady like you whose happily married-can't imagine a man not returning what you give- come up with such a wealth of feelings on the subject, cause some of your poems are about it fairly often.:)
Yes they are I admit, and well I guess I am a very sensitive person. I love deep and I hurt deep, be it husband, mother, friend...and I have a big imagination! lol
Really though my first poetry was raging about my mother's healthcare givers and when I knew I had to get away from that to survive I went to music which I love and pretty sure you read some of my poetry on my site like "Good as I was to you" ? Well I listened to the song over and over and let the story come out my fingers. So that is it in a nutshell. Now it is just easier, I get an idea and don't need the music. I have some now to get copyright in Feb..wow I can't wait to get them out there.
Oh and BTW there are fewer about love, but many out there want that too,,,and done wrong songs like my man B.J. Thomas does, you know? I have some good ones about the south though I think you will like. Everyone hopefully. My views are broadening, lol.
Just Like a Paper back novel.. you make it work well here in this poem.. up and creative :) Frank
Thank you Frank, so glad you think so, I do try to be creative as I know you are too from your poetry.
Meaningful. Beautiful. Awesome-ful? =) I know it's not a word, but I was on a roll! I love this and if you don't mind me quoting, this was my favorite section:
"Now we near the end of our story; where happily
ever after should have been written.
All your memories are of someone you never knew;
a sad fairy tale of someone once smitten."
Thanks for sharing this!
Thank you ElecticFusion for liking...and for saying so!
You are a good poet! I love the last line - what a motto for life in general!
Thank you Marcy, and better when the book is made a short story! lol
Hi Jacky, You better come on over,
I've got a bottle of Paso Robles's , J LOHR. cab.
It's to bad Romeo and Juliet were so young.
kay
WOW, Love it Jackie
Voted up
Very glad I am following you
Now when I want to be inspired
and remove my funky blue
you know your words will
lift me up its true
KDee- They just popped into my mind at the last minute, lol. Thanks and I will come by.
Well thank you cleaner3, so glad you really enjoyed it. I have enough to keep you busy awhile!
I loved it and thnak you for sharing.
Take care;
Eddy.
Paperback Novel is very interesting imagery. I loved the symbolism in this poem. Nice work
Thank you so much Eiddwen!
Vinaya, I do love to have a theme when I can come up with one, so glad you appreciate that.
What an interesting poem. You sure put yourself into your poetry. Well done! Thank you. :-)
Ah yes, still raging and I take them serious when they say they want 450 words...I can do that. lol
Thank you so much, James!
Loved this poem, it was inspired! I love the Gordon Lightfoot nod and think your writing is incredible. I look forward to more. Voted up! Take care, Lana
LHpyFace thank you so much, with friends like you I can have no enemies. I have more to come!
Jackie, this is so beautifully done. I don't often read poetry, but this, I, like almost everyone else, could relate to. It's as if you've taken my feelings, from a past relationship, and put them on paper, and so eloquently. I'm reading more. : ) Voting up, and beautiful. You're very talented.
Thank you albertsj; you have made my day!
Wow. Jackie, you go deep. This was painful to read. The emotion was breathable. Its got a beautiful flow and is so well written but it conveys such sadness, such betrayal. Impressive!
Thank you so much poetvix, I do become like an actor in my poetry, it is the only way to be good I think. Many think it is all true but my life is not nearly so full,,,other than my poetry.
snakeslane Level 7 Commenter 4 months ago
Hi Jackie Linley, Re: Your question. I see you have your poem in the right category. Love your Gordon Lightfoot inspired poem by the way. Regards, snakeslane